tonite tbV and i headed out with our bossman darin and his cool kid justice and went to watch the fireworks in philly preceded by such a-liner bands as earth, wind and fire, dj jazzy jeff without the Fresh Prince, roots, estelle, some mcdonald guy formerly of the doobie brothers and boyz to men as a surprise act not on the programme – we arrived late for the bands but in time for the fireworks so pretty decent timing.
and i have to say without doubt that it was the best firework show i can remember seeing ever – some pretty big amazing fireworks but then some pretty bigger flippin amazinger fireworks – after seeing two big shows already from the rooftops plus other random peoples fireworks going off nightly for the last week or two in the build-up to july 4 i have to say i was largely over fireworks [a firework is a firework, right?] but there were a good couple that did some cool things from waterfalling type drip motion to strands that exploded different colours on the ends to the big poof cushion from the centre vibe… huge and impressive and mouth-opening.
as they were happening [they went on for a long time, felt like a half hour but was probly ten minutes of constant explosions] i thort back to this afternoon when we put together 16 bags of really quality food that had been donated by a store here and did the weekly food parcel handout. in the three weeks of doing this, it was by far the best food we have handed out with fruit packages, exotic salad collections, a bunch of fresh fruit and vegetables – 2 whole coconuts – and the cookies we prepared earlier [defrosted, bagged and bow-tied] – and it went to some really poor people from the local neighborhood.
my mind struggles to hold those two things together – having some small idea of how a smallish big fireworks show costs i cannot come close to imagining the kind of money that was poured into tonite’s show – i would go beyond thousands of dollars to hundreds of thousands of dollars and hope that not even entertaining millions is the right call [with the bands and elaborate sound system and big screens who knows what the whole thing went to]
for me there was a moment when the fireworks had awed me as much as fireworks are able to and it could have ended there and i would have been beyond happy. but it continued. for a long time. and a lot of the fireworks after that looked a lot similiar to the fireworks before that. i imagined if the last five minutes or whatever it was of fireworks [unnecessary in the big firework-watching context of the evening] had not been bought then what good that money could have done.
then i took a look at little justice sitting on his dad’s shoulders having an absolute blast [this kid gets excited by stuff] and i thort there is definitely some great element of worth there – i looked at the crowd of between 100 and 200 thousand people absolutely celebrating together in a scene somewhat reminiscent of us winning the rugby world cup or getting the soccer world cup bid and i thort there is good here. but i still am not sure if i can justify the extent of what was spent when i think of the poverty we have living all around us day to day.
i did have this thort at some point of my thortingness though, somewhere on the way home – i believe that everyone has to be doing something for the poor. not that everyone has to be doing everything for the poor or that everyone has to be doing something for all of the poor. but that every individual needs to be investing and engaging and reaching out to someone or ones who do not have as much as them…
probly more to follow, but this thort buzzes around my head as i head off to pushup and then to bed – oh and one more thort was to people back home who daily walk past people saying “i don’t have money to give you” and then enjoy golden circle tickets to U2 and Coldplay concerts… not sure i am able to get round that one, but then grapple with the difference between my movie ticket or improv evening or night out with my wife to someone else’s golden ticket, why is mine okay and theirs not?
i don’t particularly want to hear answers, just to know that you too are wrestling with some of this stuff, if you are.